Grateful!!!

I am finding myself very grateful today.

Kaitlyn Janece...she has a special heart!

She has cleaned for me all day with a song being sung all day while she did it!

She loved on her brother Grant and she loved on her lil sister Miss Delaney!!

She has grown a lot since this picture about 2 years ago but I had to re-post cuz it is one of my favorites.

She appreciates what is given to her and she loves peace.

She has a laugh that can echo through the house and make you laugh yourself.

She is my 2nd daughter and also 2nd born of 7.

I love what she brings to our family.

She has a soft heart like me yet soo much faith and love inside just like me too.

I am grateful beyond words to have her!

I love you Kaitlyn Janece Holen!!

Isn't her smile and silliness the best?

She has big dreams...wants to travel abroad...she is a junior.

What will I do when she moves on...

Be happy for her that is what I will be!!  So I am grateful and thankful for each day I have her here with us!

A day at home....

Ahhh....the wind is blowing...and the sun is shining which means this momma wants to stay home all day and tackle what else....LAUNDRY!!   Doug had James carry all of it down to the laundry room this morning and he could see the anxiety rising in me by just looking at me and then so nicely and with a calming voice said "Kim....its just laundry."

Isn't that the truth......that is what it simply is.  Laundry.   It will always be there.  Waiting for me to visit it and spend quality time with it.   I would rather sit and listen to the chatter of Delaney.   

Okay that sounds all calm and good but truly AHHHHHH!!!!!!   It drives me bonkers to fall behind but my silly back/body won't let me do anything for a long time...just short intervals.   I look at the laundry and feel like I am failing.  Why can't I keep up?   I also dislike having to see my kids run downstairs to find a pair of washed socks to wearl   

So....my to do for the weekend...laundry and a warm, crackling fire going, and hopefully a nap and some laughs now and then. 

Anyone want to share their tips on how you keep up with laundry...organizing and putting away....especially with 7 kids!!   Please feel free to give me tip or two.

 

  

It's been awile

Yesterday I spent most of the day wandering around doing little things and Doug was out with Mathias doing some cattle moving.  Mathias love that.

My great helper Kaitlyn (16) did ALL my laundry and has it almost all folded!!  I am sooo grateful for her...she was surprisingly rewarded with a itunes card that Doug had never

used!!

Doug and Mathias got back around 5:00....did our own farm chores and we all snuggled in front of a blazing warm fire downstairs in our newly remodeled tv room....ahhhh!!

It was a pretty good day...pain of course has to interfere...but I try to keep moving and then resting.

So then at bedtime...all the kiddos love to sleep in the same room on the floor and bunk beds and its just a huge pile of blankets and cute heads sticking out sleeping so peaceful.  Warms a mothers heart 

We only allow this on breaks and holidays...a treat for them for sure!!

So Doug and I laid in bed and watched some tv and talked and talked....then the silliness in me kicked in and I LAUGHED...yes you heard me right,  I LAUGHED and LAUGHED til the tears flowed from laughing so hard.   Doug just shook his head at me like I was nuts. 

It may not happen today again ....or for awhile again but I have not laughed like that in probably 6 months!! 

Pain, back surgery, and still ongoing pain had taken all the giggles outta me.

But hey....I felt that it was huge progress for me.

Who woulda thought a laugh could be such a HuGE thing!

 

Comment?

This may be a silly request...but since I am such a needy person

 

I was just wondering if someone would comment on some of my posts?

 

The blogger world is good for me...I feel its good for most people.

 

I guess I just want to talk more....Because I stay home 90 percent of the time

 

I would love some adult talk or input!!

 

Just sayin....



It never goes away

 

It has been over a year now since my dad went to heaven.

 

I miss his voice.

I miss his hunting stories.

I miss his integrity.

I miss his smile and hugs!

 

Hang on to the good things...

don't let them fade from your mind ...

This picture his before cancer took him from his two loves...

hunting and dogs!

 

I miss him alot....tears come and go often because

he just simply isn't with us anymore.

 

Love what you have.  



2013

2012 was a rough year for the Holen's...and I am not looking for a pity party but it has mainly me, in my opinion.  I don't think my family thinks this....but I see it in them...the way they look at me and the way silence sometimes fills the air.

 

But in my defense I have been through the  ringer for the entire year of 2012.  I have had back pain that eventually ended me with surgery on Nov 7 and today as I am 7 weeks post op....yep you guessed it...I STILL hurt!

I feel guilty and all on my own I am doing this to myself.

 

I lost my point position after 12 years of working there...now to go to the lovely status of "casual" which to me hurts and is a slap in the face.  Makes me have soo many questions..."wasn't I worth the wait to heal and then come back?"..."I thought they were family to me....Too many to type.

 

But I know that God decides what path we are going to take...and although it has been a questionable one...I am beginning to accept that it was supposed to happen this way and it actually I truly believe will it will end up to be a blessing to me.   A new door will open and I will walk through it with no pain, no heartache from LRHC, and excitement for what comes next for me.

 

My kids have had a challenging year as well with all my dr issues etc but they stay strong and continue to give me hugs and help me when they can or more like "feel like it"  haha!!

We have made it through it....Doug has been the best....running the show pretty much for 5 weeks straight plus taking care of me.   poor soul! 

 

So as we enter into a New Year....lets dream of good things...smile a lot....thank God each and everyday for what we do have...live with hope and courage in our hearts!  We must love ourselves and then we can share that with so many others!!  Bless you all and lets work hard to take the time to love, dream, and have faith in the Lord!!