Expectations???

Okay so here we are the 4th of July weekend...Gma and Gpa came and took 3 of the kiddos up to the cabin...now do I go to or stay home?  The other kids want to go soo badly...gives them time by the water and with cousins and gets us out of our home for a bit but I struggle leaving home knowing that it seems twice as hard to take care of the kids far away.  i shouldn't want to take the easy way out.  I love it up there too...wide open space...beautiful shore and scenery...nice dock to sit on but I always...always worry my kids are too much.  Where has this stemmed from?  I don't know...perhaps way back when I had only 3 kids I remember being told by a family member to "split them up cuz they are a bit much"  Ouch....that one I needed a band aid for and took me many years to get over that one.  But now I sit with 7 and love every one of them but yes it is work...and believe me I have days I am not the best mom I can be but I try.

Sooo...do we go or stay put?  I need to work on this part of my parenting.  loving my kids even when they are "busy" and not expect them to be perfect all the time.  I think I am just tired.  Perhaps the cabin could refresh me...reset me.  I know I need it.  I need to change something within me cuz this momma is tired and has lost her positive outlook.  I sure can put on a good show though.   I should get an award for that huh???   

Kids are blessings...my life is blessed...I just need to slow down and feel it and enjoy it!!